Hour by Hour, Day by Day.

My Stereotactic Radiosurgery has failed. I know it can take some time, but I've given it enough time to work. I'm disappointed, and sadly my pain is worse than ever. 

On my left side, I have Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia, but now I have pain on my right too. Unlike the left side, the pain comes and goes on my right, which means I have TN type 2 on my left and TN type 1 on my right. What are the chances that I would get this hellish condition on both sides? 

The past few days have been really tough and sleep has been practically non existent. Sometimes I grab a few hours sleep here and there, but I can't sleep now. The pain is just too extreme, I literally want to bang my head off the wall. Yesterday I wanted to rip my face off. It's a real worry too, my mood is getting darker and darker as the pain gets worse and worse. 

Finding the positives in life is difficult. I look around me and I see my cat and dog snoozing happily, and I envy them. Writing this is hard, I know what I want to say, but the bright screen is seriously hurting my eyes, sending sharp stabs down my face. If I didn't know how to type I would be in trouble. 

I have said this before and I will say it again. We need a cure. Living like this isn't right and it isn't fair. We are pumped full of medications, used as guinea pigs to see what, if any procedure will work, There has to be a universal solution, they can walk on the moon and dive to the deepest depths of the ocean, yet fixing us is not even on the World Health Organisation's list of priorities! The Light Up Teal campaign is well underway, and we will change that. 

Light Up Teal for TN - TNNME

Taking it hour by hour and day by day is how I survive and I am surprised my sanity is still intact. Will it be intact in a years time? How about 2 years?? 

Petition to the World Health Organisation - TNNME- Trigeminal Neuralgia Petition to the World Health Organisation, please sign and share.