Tuesday 26 April 2016

Trigeminal Neuralgia Hell.

Unfortunately, I have no good news. I have seen both my Neurosurgeon and Radiologist in the past couple of weeks, and more radiation off the table. My Neurosurgeon was so nice. He is a gentleman and he was completely straight with me. No bullshit. He told me that I may never find any solutions, and I have to make peace with that. I couldn't be angry with him, because I could see the empathy and sincerity on his face. I guess a successful treatment is not in my immediate future. 

I was very deflated coming home from the hospital. A small part of me hoped that my doctors were going to come up with something that will definitely help me. Trigeminal Neuralgia is hell, and it is so tricky to treat. It could take years!! 

At the moment, my pain is off the charts. My left side is between 8-10/10 and my right is between 6-9/10. Both sides are constantly painful, but the pain is more intense in my left side. It is unnerving how painful the right side has become since Christmas. It is slowly getting worse and worse. It is so hard to cope now. 

Simple activities that most people take for granted is virtual impossible for me now. I hate brushing my hair, washing my face and cleaning my teeth. It leaves me with intense zaps and burning pain, and sometimes it makes me cry. Imagine the tears falling down your face when you have TN. It is like acid trickling down your face with constant stabbing pain. It sucks.

The weather is great now, except for the fecking wind. The sun shines, although it's still cold. I could cope with that, wrapping myself up like an onion. The wind is a no go. I can't go outside, and if I do it's just inviting a 10/10 pain level for a day or two. 

My mood has been dark, there are other factors that are contributing to my well-being too, and I can tell you, I am at breaking point. Trying to keep a smile on my face for those around me is exhausting, and I just can't do it anymore. I have a great circle of people around me who try their best to understand. They don't, and it's not their fault, so I don't blame them. I am encouraged to get out and about, as if that will make a difference. 

When you have serious pain, especially Trigeminal Neuralgia pain, there is nothing anyone can do to make it better. That must be so upsetting and frustrating to our families and friends. 

I am also slowly coming off Tegretol. My Pain Specialist wants me to come off it and start on another drug. I reckon that my pain is so much worse lately due to the Tegretol leaving my system. I am going to my GP, and I will tell him I am going back onto my regular dose of Tegretol. I have called and emailed my Pain Specialist's office, asking for a cancellation. 

So much is happening now, and most of it just sucks. We have to keep going though. Don't we? 



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